Contemplating...

Its in the middle of exams. Yet in my lapse of concentration, I decided to come here to contemplate about life. (Hah)

Was thinking about my time in NUS. How have I blended in? What are my achievements and failings?

Wells, just feel like ranting everything here.

Academics

I am glad I can get use to the system. University is really an avenue for me to advance my intellect and maturity in perspectives. So far so good. 

My journey in History thus far can only be summed up in one word - fulfilling. Often in self introductions to new people, they are shocked. Wow, history! Why? What can you do with it? I try to reply them in good humour, "I just like History lor. Next time work for the government." Well, I am not kidding. Mr Tong had even commented that I am suited to work in the public sector. I still don't know what holds for me in my future career, but I do hope I will enjoy what I do. I have even seriously considered being in the academia... but nah.. haha. Not very suitable for a person like me who always procrastinate all my readings and writing of term papers. haha. But I do have a passion for history, and they way it shapes my thinking. It is not something that anyone can understand, especially those more inclined in the sciences (be it natural or social) than in the arts. Likewise, I can't imagine myself doing mathematics (yucks) or chemistry(like my bro) either. 

Music - Geyao and Voices

Joined Geyao in the first sem, and voices in the second. Wells, really enjoyed myself very much. Also made some friends in Geyao, albeit not as close as they are among themselves, I am really very comfortable in their presence. I am always a person who takes very long to "warm up" in front of people. And I always seem so awkward in established groups of friends. So I'm really thankful for the people in Geyao to provide me with a sense of rootedness in the transient social life in NUS. 

I've also got the chance to meet really (and I mean REALLY) talented musicians who have taught me so much. Although I still have so much to improve, I am willing to work hard. All my life I had been more of a hard worker than someone innately talented. Many people often compliment my "talent" in music and my studies, but really, I am not born musically inclined nor smart. It is my passion in music and in pursue of higher truths that has led me where I am. My point is, it really does not matter whether one is talented, as long as one has the passion and determination, along with some guidance, one can do well. Wells, thats my philosophy for life anyway. :P

Have been involved in several performances, and I really agree that performances force you to improve. I really hope I can further improve. But I think I need someone to guide me, but William graduate le. Oh wells. Another realm that I ventured into is song writing. Once I started there is no way of stopping. Haha. I realise that songs will just naturally come out in times of extreme emotions. Be it sadness, nostalgia or stress. I admit that I am a very emotional person. I do have my share of sensibility sometimes, but emotions have been largely dominating my thoughts and actions. Nonetheless, this is nothing that I am ashamed of. In fact, I am even slightly proud of where my emotions can lead me. hee.

To sum it all up, life in NUS is generally good. There might be doubts along the way, but I must find a way to conquer them, be it in academics, music or socialising. I strive for a more fulfilling academic year in the coming August!