Strange Emptiness

It has been a long hiatus huh?

Have you ever felt that your life is so occupied, but your soul is still thirsty for some real spritual fulfillment?

For the past 2 months or so, my life had been great. I've had a better understanding of my dad and my extended family. I am finally able to navigate myself around the buzzing city in which i was born in. I've also became better friends with some old friends from my secondary school days. After coming back to Singapore, I am doing what I love - music. Together with 3 other great musicians and friends, we've formed an acoustic band. We had successfully passed through 2 auditions, we had our first ever gig, and a few more are coming along the way. My relationship with Kevin is stable and happy. With the greatest gratitude to Mr Tong, my GP tutor, I am now doing GP home tuition for a JC1 girl. I have even more motivation now to pursue my interest in the affairs of the world. Life is generally meaningful.

Yet...

There is still something missing. It just struck me last night. When was the last time I've had a very good conversation?

I have had friends whom at the peak of our friendships, we could connect on a very deep and heartfelt level. Yet these friendships - like relationships of all kinds - faded with time. I am surrounded by very fun and interesting people now. People who can make me feel so comfortable and happy when around them. I am grateful for their presence.

But sometimes i still feel as if a part of me isn't fulfilled. Perhaps it is a mismatch in mindsets and immaterial needs, I felt as if I haven't had a meaningful engagement in a long while.

I've heard from somewhere that reading a good book would give you the feeling of having a good conversation. I am occupying myself with endless things to read now. From chinese fiction to ancient philosophy, from history to current affairs, I am just reading whenever I can. Hopefully I would be able to chance upon a good read to quench the thirst of my soul.

When was the last time you had a meaningful conversation? Perhaps, if you are seriously thinking about this question, you could do me a little favour by conversing with me. =)