幸星

Graditude beyond expression. Thanks for that confidence boost. It means the world to me. =)

Today is the start of the dreadful mid year exams. I guess I won't be around for a while.

"Holidays" are ending soon, although I never once felt that it was a break at all. I can't believed i survived the entire "holiday" without my bike and half of it without my piano. By survived i meant it rather literally. So many a times i went back to school for the purpose of studying(lol =P) and playing the wonderful grand in the hall(yeah more like the main reason).

I think my favourite place in school shifted from the piano on the 4th level to the backstage of the hall. Can't find solidarity, but at least much solitude and peace. Somehow thats just more important than having an audience.

I have been seriously thinking, what will happen to my life in 10 year's time? Would I be doing something which i enjoy? would my dreams be fulfilled, and if not, would i have the energy to pursue anymore? Is dreaming the prerogative of the young? At 18 I can proclaim that I want to chase my dreams, yet at 28, would it even sound silly to still be thinking about dreams? Youth is what I have now, but have i truly made use of it to do something which i probably might not as i age? Would my idealism fade away as the practicalities of life hit upon me? How far can society erode my own faith and hopes?

Questions questions questions... The more I try to ascertain my future the more uncertain it becomes. Oh wells... Does it mean I should stop thinking? Hah.. another question into the perpetual cycle of uncertainty...